The Burden of Family
Nick Kelly (Victor Pride) recently released a Podcast in which he answers the question as to whether he’ll ever get married or into an LTR and have kids. He says (paraphrased), “no, not now, possibly not ever.”
He then goes on to discuss how he puts work before all else and all of the married men & fathers he knows have lost their fire.
When I heard this I nodded in agreement as having a family does reduce a man’s output.
I let the thought go and listened to the rest of the audio clip which conveniently ended right before I finished my commute from work.
I didn’t come back to this topic until I was laying down with both of my kids. I had intended to work on editing the next book, but both my son and daughter came up to me right before I was going to put them down for a nap (we had a late party to attend that night) and they asked if we could have a ‘family nap’ (think Willy Wonka’s grandparents, everyone in the bed napping) basically I’ll nap with them, one on each side, me in the middle.
My immediate instinct was to say “No” as I had edits to do, but I thought of all the other times where I’ve said No the past 2 weeks because I was studying for finals, knocking out assignments, writing posts, etc.
So I said, “Yes.”
While lying there I thought of Nick Kelly’s point on work. I was also thinking of how there is nowhere in the world I’d rather be than laying on that bed with both of their little heads on my chest listening to them lightly snoring, in rhythm. I thought of how choosing to nap with them over editing was me placing the work I had to do with my kids over the work I had to do on the book.
I caught myself thinking of this/that and intentionally forced myself to immerse in the now. Hearing their snores, their soft hair, the warmth from their little bodies, my mind was warmed by the comfort & joy that comes from knowing your kids still need you.
I won’t have these moments for much longer and that’s a sobering thought. My son is becoming a man, more and more independent with each passing day. Same with my daughter, I find her asking for help less and less with the passing months.
I chose this life; I intentionally chose the grind of fatherhood knowing that by doing so, I’d become a less productive individual with regard to my own pursuits.
But that’s the point; their development, upbringing, and life experiences have become a part of my work.
This is an aspect of fatherhood & marriage that is lost on many men. They view their wife and kids as a burden, they think they would be better off if only they were single.
This is a flawed mentality and it is where the FAMILY aspect of being a Family Alpha comes into play.
Nick Kelly can travel to anywhere at anytime he chooses. Illimitable Man can pump out a high workload of writing without having to worry about dedicating time to others.
Some men view them with envy, wishing “if only I weren’t married with kids” as if their failure to perform has to do with their life status.
Married men and fathers, look upon your wife & kid(s) as fuel, not as an anchor.
Recognize that your role in life is different than the single guys out there. They can travel in a moments notice while you are raising the next generation of men and women who will raise the standard of masculinity and femininity in our society.
When you create a pathway to act as your son’s Rite of Passage you are doing your work as a masculine man. When you lead your wife to staying in shape, being a freak in the sheets, and allowing her to fill her feminine role you are doing your work as a man.
Most of the work done by the Family Alpha’s out there is done in silence. We are the silent professionals of the Manosphere; the men who write on their blogs when the family has gone to sleep, in between activities with the kids, or while a wife is talking to us and seeking guidance.
We are the men who have to wake up earlier to get time alone and stay up later to get edits done. We make time to lift, read, and write while also leading a wife, educating our children, and ensuring the entire clan is truly living, getting the most of their days, and Hanging Polaroids.
We not only have to maintain our own standard but we must also maintain the standard of those whom we lead. Masculine men walk their path alone, stop looking at other men and comparing your life to their’s, because they aren’t looking over at you.
Masculine men invest their time in improving themselves and putting in work, stop wasting time with the envy or playing the ‘if only‘ game. Single vs married vs parent with regards to masculinity is a fucking retarded comparison to make. Men aren’t more or less masculine because of their relationship status and whether they’ve reproduced or not. All that matters is the man alone, judge on merit of character and stop looking for excuses as to why you aren’t performing as a masculine man should.
You’ve got work to do; married or a parent it makes no difference, you need to set the bar from which excellence will be measured. Take what you’ve got and make it the greatest it can be. Your wife and kid, they’re a part of your work as a man, so invest the time to lead them and don’t think for a second they are an acceptable excuse for your failure to perform; they’re a part of your performance.
Your wife is a reflection of your performance as a man, your Sons and Daughters are a reflection of your performance as a man. Your “self” grows when you take on the responsibility of others (wife) or when you decide to create a life (Kids). They are now extensions of you and are equally important in regards to development and caring for as you would your ‘self’.
If you’re a Family Alpha, then you need to view these extensions of self as motivation to push forward. You may not produce as much as you’d like, that’s fine as it shows you have hunger. Don’t let it get you down, instead let it be the fuel which causes you to rise to new heights. Family men are forced to be better with regards to time management. If you aren’t hitting your personal goal of productivity, take a look at how your normal day plays out and find the time sinks then remove them.
Sacrificing sleep may be necessary, just ensure you’re doing all of this for you and not because you feel you need to keep up with other guys. Do your thing and everything will be alright; never accept mediocrity, refuse to reward failure, and do not allow yourself to be come complacent. Periodically insert some Intentional Discomfort in your life and be objectively honest with yourself when you ask the question, “Am I really doing the best I can?”
Acta Non Verba,
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