I was recently asked how a guy who was ashamed to show his body was supposed to start hitting the gym. This guyÂ was a father, husband, and man who truly wanted to reclaim his masculine â€˜selfâ€™ yet was too embarrassed and ashamed to take that first step out into the world.
Like Quasimodo who was more comfortable in his tower this man chose video games over social exposure because that was what kept him comfortable andÂ safe.
This post is for the men who suffer that crippling fear of judgement; those self-defeating thoughts that they’re too fat, too ugly, and too weak to achieve what they see others achieving online, in movies, on Twitter, and all over the internet.
These men think, “Those guys can do it because they’re luckier, richer, had easier lives, etc.“
These guysÂ knowÂ that the excuses they’re using to justify why others are taking action while they remain stagnant are total bullshit, but it soothes the wound to the ego temporarily and it buys them time to do something else to distract them from reality.
Netflix, Video Games, Computer, Phone, etc…
These men fear venturing into the world because they fear being ostracized and they can’t get over that absolutely overwhelming and crushing shame in what their body & mind have become.
They let fear of judgement overcome desire to improve; to quote Mark Baxter, “Their level of disgust in themselves has yet to exceed the desire to do nothing“.
With permission Iâ€™m sharing a part of my email back to him:
“It isn’t just your body which is weak, it’s your mind as wellÂ and that’s ok; because now you know you’ve got to pull your head out of your ass and start living. You aren’t getting a ‘re-do’ on life. My blog is just a bunch of words; it’sÂ yourÂ application of them which I’m writing for.Â
With all of this said, I won’t tell you to find motivation in your kids or your wife, I’m going to tell you to find motivation inÂ yourselfÂ because ifÂ youÂ don’t believe in you, then why should anyone else? IfÂ youÂ don’t believe in you then why should those you are leading believe in themselves?
Your kids follow your example, not your advice – they see when you keep the shirt on and when youÂ are ashamed of your body.
There’s been enough of that in your life; too many days, weeks, and years have been spent doing it that way.
It’s time for a change brother, own it. Start having a blast and who gives the slightest fuck if someone looks, comments, or whatever – become unshakable and own this life.” â€“ Hunter
Men are told that if they followed this set path of
- don’t make waves
- be nice
- share your feelings
That they’d “get the girl”Â and their life would be set. They’d be the King of their castle, their wife would submit to their lead, and their children would sit around them absorbing the aura of masculinity being let off by their father.
That’s not reality and more men are finding this out day by day.
Iâ€™ve made it a point to consistently push the message that lifting weights is the 1st step towards reclaiming your masculine nature. What Iâ€™ve failed to address is how does the man who does not currentlyÂ have the confidence to show his body at the gym take this step?
Before I answer itâ€™s important to place yourself inside the mind of the ashamed man. Try to look at the world throughÂ hisÂ perspective and if this seems eerily familiar, recognize that this may be you.
The men who recognize something is wrong are the ones who start looking for answers. They have a void in their heart and an incredible sense of self-hate growing; this leads them to turning to Google or some form of social media to figure out what the problem is. Theyâ€™ll stumble across The Family Alpha, the Manosphere, The Red Pill, or Married Red Pill subreddit and read for hours, sometimes days.
Theyâ€™ll come out of this journey awakened to the fact that:
- The comfortable world theyâ€™ve been living in is a lie & now they’re uncomfortable.
- They are the source of their problem; not the excuses theyâ€™ve used up to this point.
- They have to do more to achieve more;Â their life of easeÂ has to be destroyed and that’s a difficult thing to let go of.
These men nowÂ know that theyâ€™ve got to take action. Every other post they read contains a variation of, â€œDo you even lift Bro?â€
The issue is, they donâ€™t know how to lift. More importantly, they donâ€™t have the confidence to go somewhere or the discipline/finances to do it alone at home.
Gentlemen, I’m telling you now, you’ve suffered long enough. How many more days, weeks, years are you going to be the man who:
- IsÂ at the beach wearing shirts, sitting on the towels or wading deep enough into the water so youÂ can squat low enough to hide yourÂ body under the water?
- Canâ€™t run around with yourÂ kids because youÂ canâ€™t run?
- IsÂ trying to take up as little space possible and remain unnoticed when youÂ attend parties or functions?
- Only feels the slightest sense of relief when you’re eating and at home yet when youâ€™re done and see the empty soda bottles and pizza boxes feel disgust and more self-hate than youÂ did before?
- Cries when in the shower, driving home from work, or when you’re in bed next to your woman who won’t even consider touching you?
- Contemplates suicide or eating into an early grave while hiding in a ‘safe’ cave at home?
I get it brother, you feel those black clouds will forever hide that light you once felt as a young man; that masculine fire which burned so hot when you had passion for life has been snuffed out.
I’m telling you now, so long asÂ youÂ don’t give up onÂ you,Â there is still hope for you to rise from the ashes like a Phoenix. You have to act, you have to look deep insideÂ one more timeÂ and give your masculine selfÂ one more shot.
This time you have the words of Hunter Drew giving you fuel, telling you to Burn your motherfucking ship on the shoreÂ as there is no retreat, you’re going all in this time.
You also have the opportunity to reach out and join a group of men who have been where you are and have turned their lives around in the Fraternity of Excellence.
No longer will you eat to feel comfortable, no longer will you masturbate when your wife goes to the store, no longer will you sit while your child runs.
The shame youÂ carry runs to your core. That’s how deep change is going to have to happen. Layer by layer you’re going to have to strip away the make-up you’ve been putting over your true self. You’re going to have to stop living like a clown and start living like a genuine man.
When that raw genuine masculine skin first hits the surface it’s going to burn. Your friends and family are going to shit test you, your wife is going to think this is just another one of your attempts to “man up”Â just like last New Year’s,Â your muscles will hurt from use and your mind will hurt from withdrawals from the sugar, porn, and other toxins that will eventually clear out.
What actions do you have to take to turnÂ life around, reclaim yourÂ masculine nature, and develop a genuine sense of selfÂ before you’re able to hit the weights?
It starts with a conversation.
It starts with taking the action of sending a message to an individual whom you connect with. Maybe you email me, maybe you email another member on the Fraternity or in the Manosphere, but you have to start the process by simply taking the action of giving enough of a shit about yourself that you swallow your pride, kill your ego, and reach out for help.
From there, youÂ have to listen.Â
That person, if they’re willing, is going to give you advice on howÂ theyÂ succeeded. You’ll set goals, you’ll be held accountable, and there will be expectations that you uphold your end of the bargain.
Time is the most valuable asset we have, the masculine man you find worthy of filling the role of ‘mentor’ will not dedicate his time to a man who does notÂ trulyÂ above all else, want to reclaim his life.
Be that man and burn the ship, it’s now or never brother.
Reach out and rid yourself of the shame that has plagued you for too long.
Take Action and Take Care,
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